i just went to go ask my mom how her day was and she then proceeded to ask me (passive aggressively of course) if i was feeling better and out of my bad attitude from the previous days.

i wish she'd understand that it's not an attitude or me being aggressive or mean or moody but that i just feel miserable. i don't understand how keeping to yourself and sleeping all day counts as an "attitude." i really want to die but she takes it as a personal attack. it's like she's looking for things to get mad and to yell at me about. 

i think anything that isn't a massive smile and pure happiness 25/8 is considered an attitude to adults and therefore you must be punished for not being a perfect little robot.

this sucks so bad i feel like my own mom hates me. i'm glad that my friends are here to support me and make me feel a little bit better but there's nothing like having my mom hug me or tell me that she loves me and cares about me and wants to help me in any way that she can.

atleast when i'm in bed or about to go to sleep i can think of my favorite person while listening to music. wish he were here.