i'm 1000% sure my mom was put onto this planet solely to aggravate and annoy me. i was rather delighted that she went off to some club earlier and so i went to go curl up in the kitchen and (since i was comfortable) played my music really loud. she apparently had anounced she was home and felt the need to scream a bunch about how if there's a breakin i wouldn't be able to hear it (even though that's highly improbable because all of our neighbors have really good security systems set up and a bunch of cameras, also she just made my paranoia worse by insinuating that and eas just generally being aggravating by saying stupid shit like that. now im all anxious and i keep hearing tapping t my window after i went to my room to get away from her being an annoyance (probably on purpose because she gets a rise out of aggravating me im sure)) i think im about to lose it im so frustrated and overwhelmed and irritated and just pissed off because of her and then she just had to rub it in and insinuate that im angry because i'm on my period or some stupid shit like that. i already think about someone breaking in and killing me or doing something worse all the time especially at night i don't even know hwy she says dumb shit like that to piss me off and aggravate me and she won't even comfort me or ask me what's wrong or anything. all she does is bother me and rile me up all the time like she gets satisfaction out of pissing me off and being a burden and an annoyance. i'm currently praying to god and listening to affirmations sothat when i cut i wont be punished by the universe for it and that everything is gonna work out in my favor (because it should) and that my mom apologizes and hugs me and tells me she's worried or SOMETHING